Life has yet took another turn, yippee…hmph
today I had a mental breakdown nothing to the point where I was near death but something
I had a visitor last night and it was shocking
he’s in a relationship
I did nothing but the fact that I had to tell him he was in a relationship was not the best thing, i didn’t think he was that type of person.
I didn’t think i was that type of person
I feel like I’m just an object.
My list for today
So recently, well lol for a minute I’ve been wanting something more. A relationship you may say…but a male best friend…a companion on all levels, well i feel like i have that, but…hold on why am i holding back.
I want you to be here by my side
I want you to be just as ambitious as me
Except my flaws and recklessness…
Because I would do that in return
I want to be able to say I love you
And not be afraid you’ll get uncomfortable
Talk to me…
Dont just let me say I’m fine
My past and your past are non factors
Imperfect but my perfection
i want you
Nothing is worst than the feeling im having now.
My mother called me at 7:15 am this morning, already giving me direction about my car.
It set the mood for me, and i wont say because of her im down and out, but she does play a part.
My balance is completely off, one of my ex boyfriends is having a baby, that was not surprising…but it was at the same time.
I’m only 22 and there’s so much of my life that I wish I could erase. I’m not happy…
My parents suck, they aren’t helping me grow into an adult, my Dad doesn’t and my mother reminds of how my life isn’t going well.
I ask God for comfort, but i think i need more than that, I need direction in life.